Seattle, WA 2009: When people pull into their shells and go silent, what in the world can be done, built, or entrusted? Surely, once the light is lost, it becomes unwise and impossible to construct anything meaningful. Only when such persons emerge truly humbled and repentant as described in the Scriptures (and not as outlined in the minds of men), can the fellowship be restored.
Excerpts from Trent’s historical letters candidly and anonymously offer flavors and insights from real-time and real-life origins. Hop aboard these instructions and confessions in mid-stream, below, and see if they help you, too.
This letter from 2009 shares the bitter taste of fellowship being destroyed by those who go to the darkness to hide.
I was going to text you, but you will need some support from the remaining parts of the body. So I am writing to you and copying all. I certainly do not want it to seem as if I am in my own world, clueless, out to lunch, mad, trying to exact the silent treatment, or anything else.
The immutable deal from heaven is that:
1. “I grieve for you my brother; you were very dear to me.” 2 Samuel 1:26.
2. “What fellowship can light have with darkness?” 2 Corinthians 6:14.
More abominable than your treacherous and horrific sin was your cold and hypocritical pretense afterward.
Unfortunately, I must be painfully honest: I just don’t believe you. And that is why it is impossible for me to help you. You desperately need help! Perhaps you will find someone who does believe you, and you will actually prosper in the Lord one day. But, to me, it seems you had an ear and perhaps an inkling for what I have shared and taught over your time in Christ, but what I am truly about remains far beneath your self-seeking standards to grasp.
I would go to hell for you; I wish you far greater fellowship with others than you ever had with me; and I wish you a billion dollars and all prosperity imaginable and unimaginable. But I am scum, the refuse of the world, having merely two interests and walking in the light at all times. I must face the immutable music of the Bible as God’s truthful verses are not changing, rendering us tragically unable even to fellowship it would seem.
I will always be a big fan of you and yours, and I will spend my time praying earnestly for you and yours, and looking forward to your prosperity irrespective of my relatively distant deal.
There is much fellowship for you in the ministry, but there are open questions as to whether it will be availed to you (by those with tightfistedness issues of their own) and/or whether such offering to you is offensive to you in light of the “greater” fellowship that you’ve already squandered.
Yes, I am devastated personally, though this is par for my cost-counted course. I am far more crushed and devastated for you as your loss column multiples uncontrollably daily. This letter is merely an FYI so you don’t have to wonder or invent stories as to my deal.
I am always open to, and hopeful for, your reconciliation with the light. That is a substantially long haul away and somewhat dependent upon the hands of non-expert builders. It is what God offers you at this time. It was always plenty good enough for me. But, I fear it won’t be good enough for you.
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When we are not proven genuine, there is something we seek for ourselves, that’s when we’re in trouble! When people want you and the result of your faithfulness, Om Trent, yet don’t bother to follow what yo’ve done to get there, only getting wounded, offended, and in return retaliating, the fight is sadly over! May we join you in the work for Christ as opposed to wanting something from you. Thank you for bearing the ache, and expressing it in a letter such as the above as I know you want to do more for us, but it comes back again to us being the one making it happen.
Amen for your faithfulness in Christ. I can feel your pain… It is not easy to watch God deals with the one you love. The truth is offensive for those who think they’re somebody. Too bad, if they only see, they thought they’re somebody only because you held them in high regard in love. It came down to Galatians 6:7 God cannot be mocked, a man reaps what he sows.
This article kills me as it reaches into my soul to find anything that remains between God and I that has not been spoken about. I just finished an email to the ministry that empties whatever I felt could be in the way. I spoke of how years ago I was a flirtatious man that would be a friendly guy just to have “nice” relationships with women. It was only nice words, but had this “nice” guy type security to it — but it was flirtatious. I have lately been struggling just to stay awake and pay attention to the things that are needing to be done. I have fallen sleep while even in front of the computer! Ugh! Paul talks about struggling with energy (Col 1:29). I cannot go astray from God (not sticking to what God wants) and expect to not receive some affliction! I lack fight at times when I need to fight the most. I have tried to leave room for God’s wrath, but in that I have lacked going after understanding how I could better help others in the ministry. I must be more for others in every way possible! I have spent so much effort on trying to be what God needs in me, and then how that helps my girls see God in me, and can help them with their relationship with God. I really must balance that better — with everybody. God has given me a heart to use! I must use it for everybody! Thank you for this. It really made me search inside! Love you.